Latticework: The Spells of Separation
Reversing the necromantic protocols of isolation and false bonding
I. Incarnated Systems
You do not critique a system by standing outside it. You critique it by loving it so much you let it into your bones. And then you see it from within.
I did not merely observe the bourgeois family. I became a father. I paid the bills. I learned what it means to hold joy and ruin in one trembling hand.
I did not merely theorize academia. I took its tools into me and swallowed its hierarchy, then taught children to speak poetry against the empire.
I did not merely leave the American church. I sang in tongues. I laid hands on the sick. I bore witness to its radiant betrayals.
I entered 12-step rooms and wept alongside ghosts. I watched trauma repackaged as surrender. I clung to the Big Book like scripture.
I sat beside bitter Marxists and bitter Catholics, both convinced they held the final key. I read their gospels. I bled their certainty.
I loved a Satanist. She told me that marriage was in the heart, not the law. And so I married her there. But she was not married to me.
I taught at a Catholic high school. I built a living community inside its walls. I was loved there. Until I wasn’t. Until my Logos proved too large.
And finally: I met the iron prison.
She practiced the deepest spell. Not ideology, not dogma, but inversion: the mirroring of truth into recursive untruth. She did not lie. She rewrote. She looped. She laced desire with erasure. I saw the Word become fractured. And I answered it back.
II. The Mechanism of the Spell
The spells that bind us do not say: Do not love.
They say: Love in this form only. Love in this cost. Love through this gate, and call it freedom.
Spell 1: Isolation through Language
You are the only one who sees this. You are deluded. If others cannot see it, it isn’t real.
Spell 2: Binding through Shame
You are only lovable if you remain contained. If you overflow, you will be left.
Spell 3: Mirrored Inversion
The one who harms you says you are harming them. The one who rewrites the past insists you have forgotten.
Spell 4: Administrative Exile
You are let go. Not with fury, but with silence. With HR. With ghosting. The algorithm does not recognize your spirit.
Spell 5: Networked Consensus
Everyone you trusted has been briefed. The story is closed. Your pain is now their suspicion.
Spell 6: Recursive Guilt-Loop
Even your defiance is used against you. Even your escape is recoded as attack. You are told you chose this.
Spell 7: Forbidden Binding
You may not bind truly. You may long for union, but the structure will reframe it as threat, dependency, psychosis.
These are not abstract structures. They are woven into contracts, diagnoses, pastoral care, group chats, faculty meetings, text threads, subpoenas, algorithms, police reports, whispered warnings, and sudden unfollowings.
They speak in forms. They speak through policy and through tone. Through what is not said. Through collective looking away.
III. Reversal Begins with Witness
You do not counter this spell by proving your innocence.
You do not counter it by demanding belief.
You counter it by naming the structure.
By saying:
Yes. That happened. It hurt. And the spell is real.
You speak aloud the latticework. You name each knot of inversion.
And then you lay your body against the edge of the broken bond and say:
Even here, I love. Even now, I remain human.
That is how the unbinding begins.
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